So, I'm feeling a little blue....

I hate days like today...when I find out that trusting people to be true to their word isn't worth the bad feelings I get when I find out they aren't....

I do it all the time...trust people. I believe what they say, and open myself up to them...show my feelings, say what I'm thinking....then the little inconsistencies start. A bit here, a word there...and the doubts start flowing. And it's time to start kicking myself again...When will I ever learn? I'm 39 and I've gone through this before...again and again...and I'm not smart enough to see it coming. I guess I get what I deserve in that regard...."If it looks like a duck...." I need to see a duck and not try to convince myself that it's a goose or swan, or hell, even a pelican! Maybe one day I'll actually hear the duck before I even lay eyes on it and avoid all this.....